Tuesday, December 8, 2015

when its been a hard year/ and you're ready for a new one






I'm not big on resolutions, but I am big on prayers for the new year. I know God moves in BIG ways. This year has been tough, to say the least. As much as I want to say I am so much stronger because its been 2 years since my husband has worked away from home- I am actually not. I am the opposite. I need Jesus and His strength.

Trying to find our way and where God wanted us to be this year has made me want to lose my mind. It wasn't easy, or fast, or clear.

The dust is settling, and finally its a bit easier to breathe. That's so much better.

Raising these kids alone 3 weeks at a time has been tough. I have learned so much about myself, God and what I can leave behind and say NO to. Which is a big part of what I want to take into the next year. Growing into the skin I want to be in.

I used to be distracted, and wasted a lot of time on things not important. These last 2 years have thrown me into a lesson I am so glad I learned- be intentional. Sounds so cliche, right? I think everybody wants that. I think everybody blogs about it or writes it on instagram. But its another thing to live it. Which is what I have been seeking, and its blind sighted me and forced me to grow up.

In the BEST of ways.

So I don't blog much anymore. Only when I feel led. And social media makes my stomach hurt. What I want to take into the new year is the lessons I have learned from this year, but also my new found skin.

So no resolutions or distractions.

Because its the hardest and the best to live real, and determined to live dedicated.

I fail at it 1,788,455 times a day. But I'm also really getting good at getting back up again and trying. And asking for forgiveness.







4 comments:

  1. I love you. Thank you for being an example of living intentionally. I cannot imagine how hard it is to be with your kiddos alone so much, but I know Father comes and gives you grace and picks you up when you fall. Hugs!

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  2. I can't imagine how hard your life must be right now. But you show so much grace and strength...more than you know! I'm more of a free spirit, and don't like to be constrained with my schedule. But I've learned, like you, it's good to have structure with my life and routine...I get A LOT more done!! ha! May God continue to bless you and go before you, sweet friend.

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